You may have seen Billie Eilish cry inky black tears, or fall to the earth with tar-heavy wings. You may have seen her with syringes sticking out of her back, or a spider crawling out of her mouth.
The 18-year-old singer-songwriter has become known for these macabre aesthetics, especially in her music videos — and if they haunt or repulse you, that’s no accident.
“I love bugging people out,” Eilish recently told the New York Times Magazine. “Freaking people out. I like being looked at. I like being in people’s heads. I feed off it.”
Eilish also said that dark visuals — as well as her songwriting, which deals with themes like death and dread — help her navigate her depression, which is one reason why fans connect so deeply with her music.
“I want to be the voice of people,” she told the magazine.
Eilish has been open about living with depression, and has written songs that confront her own suicidal ideation.
She also has the neurological condition synesthesia, which causes one sensory experience to trigger another, so she approaches music more visually than the average person.
“I think visually first with everything I do, and also I have synesthesia, so everything that I make I’m already thinking of what color it is, and what texture it is, and what day of the week it is, and what number it is, and what shape,” she said in a video for YouTube Music.
For example, Eilish sees her song “Bury a Friend” as gray, black, and brown; “Xanny” is “smooth and silky, maybe velvet, like if you could feel smoke.” She told Rolling Stone that “Bad Guy” is “yellow, but also red, and the number seven. It’s not hot, but warm, like an oven. And it smells like cookies.”
Eilish has repeatedly cited Tyler, the Creator and Childish Gambino as visual inspirations throughout her career. She has also praised the gruesome aesthetics of “American Horror Story” — although she’s not all doom and gloom. She told CBS, “Nobody that knows me thinks I’m a dark person.”
Source: Insider.